my toxic valentine. ♥

another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky. sometimes i wish that it would rain here.

run, run, bloody run.

lurker. lurker. lurker.

god i’m a lurker.

but it’s so funny. i think they may have possibly maybe noticed…

AND THEY’RE IN THE ROLL CALL NEXT TO ME WHICH IS SO AWKWARD CONSIDERING IM GOING OUT WITH ONE OF THEIR FRIENDS I’VE TALKED TO THEM ON SKYPE BUT NOT IN PERSON AND THEY JUST PRETEND IM NOT EVEN THERE WHILE I TRY MY HARDEST NOT TO LAUGH.

okay.

one of them got lost today. sitting in tec watching them was funny. laughing with shannon, while we were purposely looking out for them. but he found his way.

oh the lurkers we are.

<3

Cassie Nott

need this for neopets; just ignore.

i dont care what you think as long as it's about me.

honestly.
i don't care.
i don't care if you don't like me.
i DON'T CARE.
you are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else on this goddamn planet - grow up.!
this isn't directed at anyone in particular.
just everyone who's thought bad about me.
so yeah.
i dunno.
my anger just died.
:|

take all of everything till i'm all black. this spell you've put me under's made me crack.

"it's enough to make a fat man sick"

listening to music; at grandma's.

so tired I could die. wish i brought the laptop here. i hate this damn computer.

i like having people NOT see what i'm doing, even if i'm not doing anything wrong. it just makes me paranoid.

"but thats enough about you"

just ignore the random lyrics i insert in this post.

i have my music up really loud so i can't hear jed and ella.

i'm awesome.

"what else can I say"

"I GOT YOUR PICTURE IM COMING WITH YOU DEAR MARIA COUNT ME IN"

okay i really wish i had the laptop now. i wanna lay down. so tired. god i hate this.

"never knew what love was, until you came around"
dum dee dum.

"and as i watch you disappear into the ground, my one mistake was that i couldn't let you down"

"THERES A PLACE IN THE DARK WHERE THE ANIMALS GO, YOU CAN TAKE OFF YOUR SKIN AND DANCE IN THE CANIBAL GLOW."

eurgh.fuck this. i want the laptop. :/

shannon maree. <3

shannon. i don’t know where to start..

you are my best friend.

you are amazing. you are my world. i could not live with out you. you are gorgeous, and funny, and smart and everything I could ever want to be.

you have changed my life completely, and forever. i’ve slept at your house more times than any of my other friends, even the ones i’ve known for over 6 years.

you are so so so so so pretty,

I would do anything for you. I would put your life before mine. i would kill someone for you if I had to. you are the most amazing person I know.

you are just everything. we have so so so so so many memories, too many to count. i trust you with everything! i never ever ever want to fight with you.

I never want to lose you. i want you and i to stay friends, forever. if we lose contact after school, then i will use my super awesome sexy stalker skills to hunt you down, and make sure we become best friends again.

you are seriously %100 the most amazing person I know.

I would give anything to be you.

With out you, I wouldn’t be who I am now. I’m so glad we had tec together, jusst those extra moments that drew us closer and closer, until we became best friends in the entire universe. honestly, you are just.. indescribable.

i can’t imagine what i do without you in my life.

you are everything.

you are my best friend.

i love you.

come eat some chemicals with me

madness, feeling scared, looking around an no-one there.

 

not in the mood

for the internet to fucking go right now.

im in a shit mood, and now is NOT the right time.

i dont know what the hell is wrong with it, but it better start fucking working.

asdfghjkl;’l,kjhgfdssfcgvjhnmkhgrtedsxkmcji u987vcdrf9uoewipsxlkijg8784e3ws90-opkgredcxihzusfy5gl.;’[

fucking hell.

i need something to hit.

where’s your fucking best guy friend when you need him?

god.

I SWEAR TO GOD IF IT DOESN’T START WORKING IM GOING TO CHUCK A MAJOR FUCKING SPAZZ.

little scene wanna be piece of shit.

no.

fucking.

no.

you are not scene.

you cant die half your hair fucking pink and the rest black and it instantly makes you scene!

\you don’t even fucking listen to screamo either.

honestly, i’ve never fucking liked you.

and yes i’m swearing a bit too much for my age, but i dont give a fuck.

im pissed off.

you are not scene.

you are not fucking cool.

you think you’re so awesome, and funny.

you’re an attention whore.

and i hate you.

i heard a whisper in my ear, it said come with me away from here. <3

the little things give you away.

 

so i don’t know. i’m in a blogging mood. and a ranting mood. and dommiiie told me to go on here, and i’m taking no chances in disobeying her. she might kill me. ;)

so i stayed at my grandma’s last night, and my little brother and i came up with a plan. i have to say, he’s more awesome than i thought he was. we started talking about ps3’s and Black Ops and stuff, and we decided that we’d put all money we earn together, alone with trading in our x-box, his 63 x-box games, 4 controllers and 1 steering wheel, and try and get a ps3 and Black Ops. 

It’s going to take awhile, and our family doesn’t have much money, but it will be worth it in the the end. just so i can kick his lil buttock. :)

i found out he’s on level 44 at his friends house! level 44! and he’s nine! nine years old! i’m only on level 13. but he’s had more time on it.

um

yeh

i kind of forgot about this

left it for hours

so yeah

bye?

xx

wasn’t i adorraablleee?

OMG LULZ

I find it really funny how whenever I sign on into skype

it pops up Ryan is online like 2 minutes later.

EVERY TIME.

 

STALKER! :O

XD

IM HYPERRR

ITS NEW YEARS EVE

WOO

:D:D:D:D:D

     <---------------------- ME.

 

XD

If Today Was Your Last Day…

Okay, so before you read any further, I want you to go listen to this song; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrXIQQ8PeRs

Go do it. Even if you can’t stand the music I listen to. Listen to the lyrics. Listen to the meaning behind it.

Listening to it? Okay, good.

Now I don’t know where to start…

I guess I just want to say, to all the people I sent this link to, then I love you. You are amazing. Even if we’ve fought. Even if we’re not on friendly terms at the moment, I still love you. If I sent you this link, then it means, no matter how small, you’ve done something that has changed my life.

Well, since it’s almost a New Year, I wanted each of you, to know that no matter what, some time this year, you have made my day. If I sent you this link, then it means that at some stage, there’s been a moment when I’ve just gone.. wow. What would I have done without you. It’s hard for me to write this, because I don’t know how to put exactly what I feel into words.

I guess, after saying I love you, I want to say sorry.

If you’re listening to the song (which you should be!) then there’s a line that goes

'”Would you forgive your enemies?”

So I want to say sorry. Now some of you aren’t my enemies, but you can still read this if you want.

To those who I have fought with though;

I am sorry. I’m sorry that I’ve snapped. I’m sorry that I’ve taken things out on you, even if it was never your fault, I was just having a bad day. I’m sorry I put or friendship in danger, over some completely stupid things. I fight with you because I care. I care that you’ve done something stupid, that could hurt you. I fight with you because I’m protective and I don’t want you hurt. I don’t want to see someone I love put into a situation where they have nobody. I’m sorry I can be a bitch. I know I’m not perfect. I lash out when I’m angry, I take things out on people who don’t deserve it.

I could never sum up exactly how sorry I am, but i’m going to try. Here’s a separate apology for all of you, because I am sorry, and I truly mean it.

These are just apologies by the way, you all get another thing written to you later on ;)

Michelle; Okay, so I guess I should start here, shouldn’t I? I’m sorry. I’m sorry that we fought over something so stupid and insignificant. I’m sorry that I put boys before our friendship. I’m sorry that I got jealous. I’m sorry for everything. We were such good friends. When I first met you, you were the first friend that I actually had things in common with. Sure, I had Brittany and Kristy, and I love them to death, but you were that person, who I could talk to about things that I actually like. You’ve changed my life, and I am sorry. I need you back. <3

Litia; Oh gosh. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that we fought over one of the most ridiculous things I have ever fought with someone over. I know we have our differences. Your loud, and confident, and I’m the opposite. Yes, I admit, you do get on my nerves. You do bug me, but you are still my friend. I’m sorry that I yelled at you, outside of the science classroom. I’m sorry that I ignored you in English without telling you what was wrong. Without you, I would still be that quiet girl sitting in the front of the classroom, not talking to anyone, sitting all by herself, and actually listening to what the teacher was saying. You taught me to speak up for myself. You taught me to befriend everyone in our classes, so that I wasn’t alone. I’m glad you were in basically every single one of my classes. I couldn’t have done it without you. <3

Brittany; Okay, we haven’t fought much this year. But for all those little things, that I snapped at, I’m sorry. For all the times last year and the year before, and the year before and so on, that we fought, I’m sorry. You are my best friend. You have been since year one. I share some of the best memories I know with you. You’ve been there with me through thick and thin. I’m sorry. <3

Lachlan; Yeah, you’re probably reading this and thinking '”Why the fuck is she mentioning me?”. Well, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I annoy you. I’m sorry that I snapped at you. I’m sorry that you have a problem with me, that goes beyond just me annoying you. I know it does. I know you’re bugged by something else I’ve done, and I don’t know what it is, but I’m sorry. I haven’t known you for long, hell, I haven’t even actually met you in person. But I’m sorry. And if you forgive me, then I have a feeling we’d actually make pretty good friends. <3

Yeah, alright. Apologies over. I’ve said sorry and I mean it.

Now, another part of the song mentions;

"Reminisce of memories”

So here goes. I’m going to think of three memories, that I share with each of you I sent this link to.

Shannon:

1. Okay, I have to say, that my favourite memory I share with you, has to be all the times you’ve slept over. All the times we stayed up till ungodly hours in the morning playing Halo and screaming our heads off every time the aliens tried to kill us. When we went onto the online white pages and stalked the guys we liked. The random photo’s we took. Running around my backyard trying to catch my brat of a rabbit.
2. Second best memory, our drive to Sydney with my family. That was one of the best trips I’ve ever had. All of the inside jokes that were created. Trying desperately to connect to other peoples internet, while driving in the car, playing spot the Australian. Shouting out TACKY every time we saw Taxi’s because I pronounced it wrong the first time. This: “If you think there a lot of Asians in Sydney, try going to China”. All the photo’s we took. That hot face of yours in that certain one. And my favourite photo that we took that day;  
3. And then last, but not least. Our shopping trips. With Dom and Georgia, and then with my Nan. Trying on clothes together in the extremely small change rooms. Freaking out at that big freaky walky thing at Charlestown Square. Those gigantic earphone speakers. Running through the pouring rain to get to my car with my Nan. Taking photo’s next to the ugliest bra’s we could find at Big W. We have amazing memories, that I never want to forget. <3

Brittany:

I don’t know how to choose just three for you, because I’ve known you for so long, but I’ll try.

1. All of the freaky stuff that happened to only us. Your Pop’s bedroom door slamming shut and locking itself when there was no-one in there and the window was shut so the wind didn’t do it. THE ALLYSEN DOLL! When we were so scared of the evil little things. The number three coming back to haunt us over and over. The dreams about banana’s, trolleys and alleyways, and then going shopping and seeing a trolley with a banana next to it in front of an alleyway.
2. All the times we acted like complete idiots just to weird people out. Remember the carrot, and those little girls who thought they were ‘oh so cool?’ Walking around with our arms linked, acting like we were stuck together. Climbing the rocks with our arms linked and nearly falling and hitting our heads. Two words; “Tar Hill.”. Locking ourselves accidently in the shed, and setting up that corner, then getting Twinkle and tying a note to her because we had no way of getting out of the shed.
3. And last but not least, the two special evens we got ready together for. First, this years school dance. When I went home with you, and we got dressed in almost matching outfits, and we spent forever doing our hair and makeup. And then last year’s Hangi. When we were at Kristy’s and we all got ready together, and took photo’s in her backyard. You had the most gorgeous dress ever. I have to say, my favourite photo we took that day would have to be this one:

Michelle: Even after our fight, we still had some amazing memories.

1. The swimming carnival, when we first became close friends. When we spent the whole time laying in the sun listening to my music and talking about absolutely everything, from favourite bands, to favourite movies and actors, and discovering we had SO much in common. Drawing all over ourselves with Kristy’s texta’s to support our colour houses. Getting incredibly sunburnt but not caring.
2. The sleepovers, with Liz and Olivia and then just with me. The super crazy dancing and stuff. Getting dressed in the nicest clothes we could and doing our makeup. Eating as many lollies as we could. Watching movies in a different language. Listening to music up loud. Then with just us; laughing at your brother making strange noises, laughing at the school photo’s. Saying our names with the last names of the guys we liked. Making billions of sets on polyvore. Drawing all over our notebooks with inside jokes.
3. All of our inside jokes. Angus’s cup! Bazooka. Charlie! Potatoes. Andy Sixx! Nuts. Screamer! My dirty USB. TURNIPS. Failing at NaNoWriMo. Putting little halo men into awkward positions with your brother at the breakfast table. All the music we’ve given each other. And I have to include this picture, because it is the most awesome picture ever and only you will get it;

Lauren:

1. Oh Lauren. I have to say, the calculator accident was my favourite. And all the other times in maths. You are the best maths buddy ever. “I hate triangles” “Ms Murray loves cheese or something”. Every maths lesson with you was awesome.
2. That P.E lesson on the last Monday of school, that we spent with Brittany, when we just walked around, took photo’s with Litia then sat in the basketball courts and stole the basketballs of the guys whenever they came near us. Eating for the whole lesson sitting on the tables and burning our butts.
3. And of course that time we were playing truth or dare at lunch and you asked a very loud and awkward question about the guy I liked at the time and he was standing right behind me.

Ryan:

1. Every memorable conversation we’ve had on MSN. All the randomness. That one day where we just spent the whole time asking each other questions and we found out that we’d liked each other before. All the late night video calls when I had Shannon over, and sometimes when you had Lachlan over.
2. That time sometime during the middle of the year when i yelled at you for cutting your hair. Sorry about that. It looked better before. ;D
3. The day we started going out. :)

Litia;

1. Every class we’ve had with each other. Sitting next to each other in basically all of them, even if we had a seating plan. Writing notes to each other while we were meant to be working. Yelling at Kouat and Blake in science because they constantly annoyed us. Listening to my ipod in science when we were meant to be watching a movie.
2. Chucking the five cent coins at Callum, then collecting as many as we could just to throw at him.
3. All of the times I’ve yelled at you really loudly from across the playground, just to annoy you. :)
   Oh & the school dance;

Grace;

1. HAPPY CHIMNEY! All of our MSN chats. Every single one of them. Agreeing to become detectives together, stalking people you know, telling you about my days at school, everything. You are the best cousin I could ever ask for. :)
   
2. The baby shower, when we went and googled the answer’s to the games, while all the adults had to guess off the tops of their heads. And when we went through all of your cd’s looking for songs with the word ‘baby’ in them, and we won. ;D
3. Every family thing we’ve done together. Spending Christmas at your place, spending Easter at your place and nomming on chocolate all day. Remember when we tried to guess what you were getting for your birthday once, and we kept talking about kittens, and then you got one? And when you used to have that hallway cupboard thing (You know what i’m talking about) in your lounge room, and we’d seep in there, and De would tell us scary stories. And everything else. Too many memories. :) & this is the only photo i have of us together; XD

Lachlan;

Well, this is going to be hard..but i did say I’d try..

1. All of our Skype calls.
2. Flipping each other on Skype & on MSN video calls.
3. When I told you I was going to jump on you, when you start school. ;D

Dom;

1. NIKKI! ;D All of the random slurping noises you make, when i was sitting behind you and you started singing ‘Take It Off’ in the strangest voice I’d ever heard. When I discovered you had polyvore. Reading the bits you wrote for NaNo ;)
2. Going to the beach with Shannon, Georgia, Connor & everyone. I can’t believe what you wore! XD While Shannon and I got nice and tanned.. you just sat there like an idiot. ;D
3. Shopping!!!! Every single photo we took that day with Shannon and Georgia. That big weird freaky thing! Trying on all different clothes, acting like idiots in the bra section, taking photo’s of everything, from ‘Georgia in action’ to my hot photo’s with the pajama’s and underwear ;D

Kristy;

1. All of our very disturbing conversations. Funny, but disturbing. You scare me sometimes. :D
2. Coming up with the nickname ‘Liz"’
3. Getting ready at your house last year for the Hangi and taking those pictures. I know yours are short memories, but I love you. <3

 

Okay. I think that’s it…

You’re probably getting bored with me now.

Damn.

:/

Okay, well, here are some pictures just for you, because you are all amaaaziiing.

 

& Happy New Year! <3

 

I love you all.

You are amazing.

You have changed my life forever.

And I will never forget any of you.

Ever.

Without you, I would be nothing. Nothing at all. I would be ignorant, and lonely, and unforgiving.

I don’t want any of you to change, you are amazing the way you are. <3 <3

Forever. <3

                                 

September, 2008.       to                 December, 2009.

I don’t have a photo of all three of us this year, but,

we will always, always be,

The Three Amigos.

I love you.

<3

DU HAST.

dum dum dum dum dum dum dum

laa de da.

new years eve tomorrow.

oh how i want to go out partying. :(

gah.

GRACES HAPPY CHIMNEY

HAPPY CHIMNEY

New Year Resolutions. 2011. <3

• I will make at least two new friends.
• I will not have a serious fight with one of my friends.
• I will have more self confidence.
• I won’t spend so much time on the computer.
• I will get a life.
• I wont ever ever do something to please someone else, that hurts me and/or the people around me.
• I will be nicer to my family.
• I wont be pushed around any longer.
• I will not sink back into my pit of hell. EVER AGAIN.
• I will try and find people I trust.
• I wont tell people that I don’t trust secrets.
• If someone asks if I’m okay when I’m upset, I WILL NOT reply ‘I’m fine.’
• I will try my hardest to get the best grades I can.
• I will complete NaNoWriMo.
• I will learn to walk away.
• I will not ever leave my friends. Ever.

you don’t deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you.

apparently:

• i’m fishing for compliments because i call people beautiful.
• i’m attention seeking because i complain about things sometimes.
• i’m a s|ut because i take photo’s of myself.
• i’m a nerd because i like harry potter.
• i look disgusting.
• i must have an eating disorder because i’m ‘so skinny’
• i’m trying to fit in with the crowd and be popular because i like spongebob.

 

i’m so sick of this. why can just not be judgemental.

they don’t know my full story.

so they can all go die in a hole.

 

that’s to them. ^

we’ll make it up to you in the year 2000. <3

listening to silverchair.

i really like their song ‘Anthem For The Year 2000’

I like the start with just the drums and guitar.

It sounds awesome.

Would you please come back online. I was away from the computer, I’m sorry. <3

kthnxbai.